The Book of Judas

In the infant days of the internet, in the early 90s, when Bill Gates declared it to be of no interest to Microsoft, I got an idea for a book of a sort. It had two inspirations: Orson Welles’ radio play adaptation of H.G. Wells’  “The War of the Worlds”  and Nikos Kazantzakis’  “The Last Temptation of Christ”. I was very young when I read the Last temptation. The conversation where Jesus asks Judas to sacrifice his integrity and reputation so that he, Jesus, can fulfill his destiny made a lasting impression on me. Until about the mid eighties I also had some concerns about overpopulation and running out of planetary resources but I grew out of it by the nineties. I just had to properly digest the zeitgeist of the time. Continue reading →

Conspiracy questions

I am still trying to get a handle on conspiracies. Forget that… I am still trying to get a handle on reality. In the end, theorizing about conspiracies is just that: an attempt to get a handle on reality.
We don’t like uncertainty. It makes us feel comfortable to know that things happen for a reason. Knowing the reason makes it easier to accept even things we do not particularly like.
Some theories are trying to foretell the future, some to explain the past. Sometimes, when the present makes no sense at all, we need to theorize about the intent that brought it to us. Religions are very elaborate conspiracy theories. Continue reading →

Communist boots, bread and health care

My political awakening, meaning the moment I realized what politics in a communist country actually means, happened around the time I was maybe 12-13 years old.
The idea of communism, meaning collective decision making, always had a tendency to degrade into a dysfunctional epistocracy in which the appointed experts were trying to solve problems in the spirit of communism. We had debates about various public concerns. Housing, shortages, prices, absenteeism, you name it. There were television panel discussions and newspaper back-and-forths trying to solve the problems. Continue reading →

How I really feel

I used to have a boss I liked a lot and had a great working relationship with. His temperament was pretty much opposed to mine. He was calm, collected and impeccably polite, yet he was in a way fascinated by my very Hungarian directness and passion. It happened a few times that after listening to my public diatribe about yet another corporate malfeasance or short-sightedness, he looked at me and said: “Well, Zork, why don’t you tell us how you REALLY feel?”

After spending months of researching, collecting and sorting information; after nearly a year and a half of disheartening incredulity, frustration and anger; I am ready to let you know. Continue reading →

Gaslight

After great many years, I watched Gaslight again. I watched it because my wife has not seen it before, but I watched it also as a refresher to the concept. I am hearing the word ‘gaslighting’ with increasing frequency and with a mostly correct understanding of what it could mean but I’m still wondering how many of the millennials using it ever saw the movie that created the notion. The idea that you can be controlled if you start doubting your sanity, your perception of reality, your actions and your public image. Continue reading →

My Covid nightmare

I woke up from a nightmare this morning. It was an end of the world scenario, where evil was coming for us. A benevolent looking big man trying to calm and console the petrified meek leading them away to – what was clear to be – their demise. Watching their fearful submission made me think that they knew it too. Then I woke up to our covid Reality. A perfect reflection of my nightmare. Continue reading →

Penance and redemption

Dear Mr.  President,

After pouring my frustration out on you in my last letter, I am writing this to say what, in my humble opinion, you could and should do to minimize the damage your loss of the presidency is doing to your supporters, to the America you love and to the rest of us who looked at the USA as a beacon of free market economies, Western civilization and the rule of law.

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The sins of Donald Trump

Dear Mr. President,

As a Canadian, I have no standing in the case between you and your people. Still, I believe I have a stake in the fate of the United States which is inextricably linked to the fate of Western civilization. I am part of that civilization which was put into mortal danger by the mistakes that led to the loss of your office.

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Screwed

I was asked in a conversation what is my take on the events of 2021/01/6
“Still on the Trump Train? Not concerned about the integrity of democratic system at all?”

I answered: I don’t know what it means to be “on the Trump train.”
I also don’t know what do you mean when you say “not being concerned about the integrity of the democratic system at all”
This whole past month was about the integrity of the democratic system which rests upon the integrity of elections. I am more concerned about it than ever. I did not know that I was on the Trump Train. I don’t even know what that means. Continue reading →

Saint Donald and the Demoncrats

I got into a few interesting conversations recently about Donald Trump and the election mess the US is dealing with. What connects them, is the visceral hatred, disgust or anger about this one person. The reaction to his persona, his demeanor, his behaviour, his mannerism. Their viscerally negative reaction is beyond any reason. As if they were possessed by a demon preventing them from acting rationally. Some even found a name for this condition: Trump Derangement Syndrome. Continue reading →